|A Bit of a Crush, Really.
||[Dec. 15th, 2008|08:31 pm]
As posted on my journal...|
I'm a total believer in what goes around comes around. I feel like if you are ok with you, then most of the time, others will mirror how you feel back to you. I believe that if you aren't confident about yourself, then the same thing will happen again. I say this because lately, I have been getting an overwhelming response to my looks. A lot of men are telling me how pretty they think I am. They just say it matter-of-factly. Like I told you in a recent post, this one really hot guy told me just how hot he thought I was. I was just floored. I guess, deep down, I know I am a child of God, and God doesn't make junk, and that I am a beautiful person, but it has taken me off guard lately. It's kind of amusing that guys lately have just been blurting it out randomly. Like, 'oh by the way, I think you are pretty...I think you look great...you're very cute...I think you are hot.." I want to believe it, mainly because most of the time, I think I am average, which I probably am, but sometimes I think that it's nice to hear what guys are thinking, most of the time. It's kind of refreshing.
It makes me wonder though, what am I doing different? I really don't know. I'm not doing anything really different. No new perfume, or way I wear my hair, etc etc.
I don't know how that segues into the 'Mass guy' but I want to talk about him. Last week, not yesterday, I was way too sick to attend Mass. I assume "Mass guy' was there, knowing a little of what I do know of him. He was there last night. I don't know why I am so drawn to him, but that I am. I haven't had the courage to speak to him yet. I was just thinking that maybe it's because he's a Catholic guy, goes to Mass on a regular basis, has a deep voice, tall, attractive to me, dresses appropriately, can carry a tune, wants to be at Mass all on his own, apparrently lives in close proximity to me, goes to my parish and seemingly single and unattached. Even the way he says 'amen' is cute to me--I guess you have to be there to find it amusing.lol It was so awesome to watch him take communion last night...ok random thought. :) I have such a big crush on him. lol I don't know what to do. I guess the easy thing to tell me is to just walk up to him and say hello, but that's easier said that done. I wish I had that sort of courage. I guess if I didn't care so much, why I do, I don't know, but if I didn't care so much, I would. Usually I'm pretty forward...I tell guys right away if I like them. But him. I don't know. I don't want to make a fool of myself. I think what I like most about him is how in tune he is with God during the Mass. It's really attractive. He's either discerning the seminary or he's praying for a future wife. That's my idea. The only thing I can think of is start praying for him.
Even though other guys are telling me they think I am pretty, I am still a little nervous to just strike up a conversation with this man. If he wasn't at Church, or maybe he is, if he was randomly placed in your world, what would you do in my place? I need some advice. lol